I realized on Wednesday night, when I didn't meet a bunch of friends out at a bar after work (for good reasons - water was shut off unexpectedly and Lois needed feeding, walking and attention, plus I had to teach early Thursday morning), that I am becoming a sort of recluse. No one calls me, and if/when they do, I can rarely get together with people, so I don't go out, at all. Plus, due to the nature of my job/sucky workload and budget, I also never go out with people from work - they're constantly going out to lunch and going for martinis and drinks and what-have-you, but I'm never done with work, so I miss out on all the schmoozing.
The big thing is: I'm OK with all of this. For now. I'm not so cool with completely losing touch with friends from the past; that's no good - but I hope that I can take care of whatever introverted psychological and life-direction business I need to now, and that there will still be friends to call when the dust settles. But who knows? I feel like I'm in the middle of a big change.
My long weekend has begun well - last night I comforted Lois from all the fireworks noises while I watched two "easy" movies and untangled these 3 fine chain necklaces of my grandmothers - she somehow got them into a horrendous clump and it took me a total of about 20 hours (I started when I visited them on Father's Day weekend) and some jeweler's tools to get them apart and separately boxed to mail back to her. It was a funny thing to be obsessed by.
Next, I'm going swimming at the pool, doing a scheduled bike and run workout, picking up a foam roller (pictures to come), making strawberry shortcake, walking Lois, and cleaning a little before heading to friend R's barbecue tonight - alone (- but that's OK!).
2 comments:
You know I went through that hanging out by myself phase for 4 years. At first I really needed to but then I think I got a little scared. I'm definitely out of it now.
I know - I thought about that - how far out of the phase you are!! I think I'll just watch it and when it gets to that scary point, I'll have to start going out again.
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