Sometimes, when I am pathetic and depressed and have no, um... receiver? for my feelings of extreme fondness and loss, I eat. My fluctuating weight over the years has been a testament to that. Other times, as in the recent anguish over dating guy, I *didn't* eat, but swam obsessively, and drank. (A newish coping mechanism I rather enjoy.) Other times, like right now, while yet another wave of sadness over that inexplicable, noncommunicative fella washes over me, I am taking classes. And, more important (more dangerous), buying things. Relentlessly.
I bought:
Three summer shirts (of course, now it is 41° again)
Two pairs of flip-flops (one for pool, one for wearing 'in public')
Clearance pink puma "running" shoes
Shampoo and conditioner
Placemats that match my plates
A blue terrycloth pool cover-up (wtf?!)
A cookbook of salads ($3.99)
Sunglasses for my cousin's new baby
Two greeting cards I will likely lose before sending
Two children's books for art class
Earrings I don't really need (but they were $5)
Brown capri-length sweat pants that are sorta funny-looking and gather at the bottom in a knit cuff-like thing...
$70 @ Walgreens for soap, deodorant, 2 kinds of foundation, an eyeliner, and lotion (that girly shit is EXPENSIVE! Holy crap!)
Nail growth stuff
A bouquet of flowers from Trader Joe's (see above, when I post the pic)
I am also taking a Ukulele class (started Monday), and Brazilian Dance (which literally kicked. my. ass. - tonight), and I made grilled cheese for myself for dinner. And walked Lois for 45 minutes.
I have swam (swum?) every day this week, including Sunday. I have taken Cardio Pilates. I am doing both Cardio Pilates and swimming tomorrow, and teaching three kids' art classes.
So, what am I doing wrong here?
NONE of these things are uplifting my dark mood!!
4 comments:
Wait until you get in the shape you're bound to be in after those classes. I bet your mood lifts then.
I think you just have to give yourself time. Getting in shape isn't going to improve your mood, eating too much isn't going to improve your mood, buying yourself crap isn't gonna improve your mood, but ALL if it will distract you until you put a little distance between you and a gigantic asswipe.
Oh, AND...by the way...you inspired me and I went to Walgreens too and I bought the sugar sugar lip topping which is GROSSLY GROSSLY expensive...and totally worth it.
Churlie,
Yeah, I hope you are right. I think I've also realized that the exercise is wearing my brain down a bit - my bad thoughts sorta take over easier when I am this tired...
Daisyblam,
Hilarious handle. I don't want to put distance though! I want him to call me! (I know, it's bad and wrong, and I am crazy.)
I want to see the lip stuff!!
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